2011

Okay, it is finally here, the New Year. It's not that I have been dreading it, but I am tired of things just happening in my life while I sit back and watch them go by. I feel a lot like a loser at times b/c I am such a bore. I don't ever go do anything anymore, and I don't have fun sitting at home by myself, ALL THE TIME. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE living alone, but I am tired of not having someone to share my life with, someone that will be there for me no matter what, someone that I can enjoy life with, travel with, spend time with, and introduce to my family and friends!! So that brings me to my New Years resolution. I have had enough of this getting fat stuff......it is for the freaking birds!! I have gained (sad to admit this) 90 pounds since I graduated H.S. Is that not disgusting???!!! I don't know how I let myself get to this point. I kept telling myself I would work out, or that I didn't look "that bad" but then one day you just have to stop with the non-sense and do something about it. Maybe if I wasn't so disgustingly overweight then little things would be easier and more fun for me. I know I need to lose weight b/c I want to be able to keep up with my niece and nephews and be able to take them to do all sorts of fun things and be able to breathe/fit on these things with them. I don't want to be the fat Ne-Ne for the rest of their life, that is not how I want them to remember me. So the time is now. It starts today. I will no longer allow myself to sit around and eat myself to death! I am going to make some big changes in 2011, and you guys watch out, b/c by the end of this year you will get to meet the leaner and more energetic Amber!!

Watch out 2011 here I come!!