Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Whew......

So yet again, it has been forever since I have been on here and been able to write. I really need to start getting better at this, b/c this is such a great stress reliever, and a great way for me to get a lot of stuff off of my chest. I have not been having the best week of my life, and today definitely took a turn for the worse. I am not a soft-spoken, mild-mannered type of girl. Everyone who knows me, knows that if I have something on my mind then by gosh it is coming out of my mouth whether people want to hear it or not. This is not neccessarily the best trait to have as a human being, even more so as a lady, so I have definitely been working on it. Well the past couple of days I have gotten better at just "giving in" and allowing people to have their way, and I don't try to insist that they see my side, some battles just aren't worth the fight no matter how much work/stress/sorrow it will cause me later. Well today, yea, let's just say it didn't go the same way, not so much. I had some very disrespectful and inapporopriate things said to me and I had enough. I fell right back in to my old ways, and let me tell you, everyone knew I was angry (scratch that, pissed)! I had to blow off some steam so I left to get away from the situation so I didn't say anything that I would later regret. I used my social networking site to blow out some frustration, w/o naming names or naming where I was. Well it turns out that some people have to stir the pot and start drama and at the end of the day I was reprimanded a little for posting what I posted.

Now let me tell you that I am a firm believer in freedom of speech, and people can say what they want all day b/c they have that write too. It is one thing to make a comment that could be generalized, but it is a whole other story to say something disrespectful and hurtful about someone or something specific. I did not do the latter of the two, however I was scolded as if I had. Now that only puts me in a better (sarcastic) mood, for tomorrow. I know that I am going to have to calm myself down so that I can speak eloquently, and get out everything that I need to say, so please Lord, let me act like a mature grown woman tomorrow, and say what I need to say w/o being catty and immature. Maybe at the end of the day my life will continue on as it is.....I guess if not, it is time for me to move on to bigger and better things!!!

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